fair ain't what I really need

postarea cu numarul 100 e inchinata unui cantec pentru amalgamul din mine!!!
... eram in masina mi-era frig , sete si somn. ma scarbise iara cu comentariile de prost gust , cu ironizarile" celor multi si inferiori" care au ajuns mai departe ca el , cu aerul acela de om care si-a ratat viata si vesnica nemultumire a "personalitatii" aleia a lui duhnind a batranete,greoi, scarba, iluzii desarte si sperante moarte.
imi taiase a mia oara "aripile" si-mi secase compasiunea.imi omorase zambetul si transormase a milioana oara primavara care izbucnea pe nesimtite inviorandu-mi toata fiinta in iarna rece, pustie si grea.
asa priveam in gol incercand sa-mi stapanesc dorinta febrila de a urla si de a-l lovi pana cand nu as mai fi avut eu putere sa ma ridic. priveam luminile cum fug si imaginile care-mi treceau prin fata erau si ele in ton cu irna din mine....ar fi avut farmec daca ma lasa in primavara mea.atunci a inceput:

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need
What you need, what you need...
Stop and stareI think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see...

iar ei nu vad ca am nevoie de ei ...ei nu vad ca nu mai am puterea sa trec peste glume si greseli ca nu mai am puterea sa iert si calmul si rabdarea si compasiunea din mine seaca...si ca vreau sa ma lase sa-i iubesc .doar atat! si cata nevoie am de asta!dar pun ziduri si bariere si sunt nefericiti dincolo de ele, iar eu nu mai am puterea sa trec peste asta ...eu nu mai am puterea sa mai ajung dincolo , nu ca sa sec iara! dar ei nu vad! si n-o sa vada!

ABERATII mohorate care suna bine:))